Saturday, April 1, 2017

31st January 2017: Black Day

At the dawn of 31st Jan'17 received a call from my uncle. Before picking up the call I checked the time and it was sharp 6am. I thought of to avoid the call as I was sleeping. But as soon as the ring stopped I made up my mind to call him back and the first word of his was "Tum So rahe the kya, abhi tume Ghar aana hai Bhabhiji ki Tabiyat bahut kharab hai" I had doubt that something went wrong but at the same time my mind was saying this is impossible as I just talked a day before to her. She was seating in the courtyard of our home.


This was the Last Call I made to my Love

Wish I knew that this will be the last call of mine with her, I would have talked for a Day at least. :( . Then, I called up again to Chachaji "Agar kuch ho gaya hai  Ma ko to bata do " and he Said "Haan wohi samaj lo". For me it was like I lost my everything. As I have not even imagined ever to live my life without her. I was shivering, I made a call to Ramesh Bhaiya and started crying like anything. I was almost fainted for 10-20 minutes. Later I assumed (as my mind was not accepting it at all) if Ma has really left us. I need to  reach for her funeral :( but above all I need to take Rohit (My younger Brother), Who is in Allahabad for UPSC exam's preparation. At last I booked him a flight ticket from Allahabad to Delhi and told to Vijay Tomar one of my friend in Delhi to arrange him a cab from Delhi to Dehradun as soon as he reached Delhi. 

Before that I made a call to Golu(USA) and told "Ma ne chor diya hume". I dont know how she might have managed but she try her level best not to let me down. In every 5 minutes she called me up.
 I took a direct flight to Ddun. I was trying my level best not to cry in the flight but it was unavoidable for me. In the entire journey I cried and cried till I reached Delhi. In Delhi Saurav came to meet me at airport as he was going back to Bangalore from home. I was not in a position to think anything but to cry as and when anyone was calling me. I was alone throughout the Journey from Mumbai to Dehradun. My only worry was  how to face my family at home and above all how to face Rohit, I reached Dehradun at 5 pm. I went to My mosiji's home at Dehradun as they were waiting for me and Rohit. Rohit was supposed to reach  Dehradun by 3am in the next morning.

Now the first and the most difficult phase of my life came to meet Rohit. Me and Vipin Bhaiya(My Mosi's Son) went to ISBT Dehradun at 3 Am and as soon as I saw rohit I was crying hard but pretended as if nothing has happened. Once we reached back to Mosi's home, the first question asked by Rohit was "Ma kahan hai muje unse milna hai" I left the room and started crying like anything in another room. I was not able to take breath. Somehow Mosiji made him possible to convince him that she is in hospital and  we all (Me, Rohit & Rahul(my cousin )) have to go there by 4am. Rohit had some milk then the time was come to tell him the truth. Mosiji said "jo hona tha ho gaya ab mein hi hun tumari Ma" That time I was not in position to think anything. At 5 am we started our journey to my Native as last funeral was supposed to happen there only.

Second most difficult part was to face my father ,my sister and relative and above all My First and the Last Love, Ma without her I never even wanted to see my home.

As soon as I reached at my village(9am, 1st Feb), her beautiful soul was sleeping there and I saw my father crying at the same time Ramesh Bhaiya told me "idar aaja bhai dekho humari ma kitni sunder lag rahi , bas bol nhi rahi". I just looked at her once and never dare to look again. I was dying. It was just I lost everything. She was the most beautiful lady for me in the entire world. 

The third and the last phase: Funeral.

Panditji told us to see her last time I touched her hand and I still/forever feel it from my bottom of my heart. As soon as the fire went into sky , I thought I had lost my tears and was just crying from inside. I was seating besides Rohit and we all were waiting for the funeral to get off. 

So that was the end of my era as after it I was quite sure I have lost my mother for forever. Everyday I used to see her pics so that she will come to me at least in my dreams but for last 15-16 days she never come. I don't know how to recover from this phase but I always pray to God don't let this happen so soon (52 Yrs)with other as it happened to us. Because You can get everything and you can replace everything but not mother. She is the only soul , who loves You unconditionally for forever.






Love You the way u used to smile 



No one can compete in beauty 
She used to wait for us



Always wanted to sleep like this 


Last Pic from my Cam and the Last Laugh 











Monday, December 1, 2014

Trip to Kodaikanal:-The Princess of Hill Station

Okay I’ll see you at office. Please do come by 9pm i told .Sure I'll be there she said. An strange feeling , whether we will enjoy or get messed up as we were the only two Hindi speaking people.
At around 10 pm:

Hey, guys, so Journey starts now, i said...
Oh I have not brought any sweater, will it be too cold over there? I asked. Yeah it will, Techie said. Okay let’s see (in excitement), i replied. Anil this trip will gonna be a fun but only condition is you have to speak in Hindi only (Actually he was trying hard to learn Hindi as he is a Malayali), I told Anil. Sharma, humko Hindi bolega (his way of speaking hindi), said Anil. So bus started from office (CDAC-T). Excitement was on top of the sky. At around 12 a.m. everyone slept. I was struggling to adjust my legs to get a nap. It was too hard to sleep. I looked around and found Techie was struggling the same. Around 2 am temperature dropped further, but thanks for the support from Techie.
Finally, next day at around 6 am we entered into Kodaikanal(Tamil Nadu) region. The dawn was so beautiful as if I were at my home town (it was almost similar to Uttarakhand’s hills). Beautiful forest, hills and chilly climate. Most of were sleeping.
Me: Hey getup, i told Techie.
Techie: wow this gonna be a great fun. It is similar to Darjeeling.
Me: Have you ever been there?
Techie: Yup, School time.
Me: Okay.

We were telling stories about school’s & college’s time. At last we reached Kodaikanal. And Anil said –“Sharma ek hotel mein 50 logo ko nhi aa sakta hum 4 ko idar rukega” :P. I was actually bit disappointed but later i came to know that only for night stay we will stay here ,rest, for everything (food and all) we will all together.
Finally entered into the hotel around (03/10/2014 @7.30am)...wow what a room. It was just awesome. We were told just to get fresh and be ready as we will start for sight scenes at around 9.30am. At around 10 am everyone met at our hotel and started. In bus most of us were new to one another but within 10-20 minutes, we all started playing Antakrishi. Except we two, rest were Malayali. Fun started like anything. We started dancing, Singing etc.

We reached “Coakers Walk ”.The climate was damn good. It was a foggy one actually. Photography started.
Me: Techie, lets follow the plan, I said. Actually we had DG Cam but low quality so we decided where ever we will see good scenery, we will simply go over there and stand, those DSLR cam guys will definitely take our pic. Later we can collect at office. Luckily the plan worked very well  :P 
From there we moved to Bryant Park. This park was full of different kind of flowers. Plenty of beautiful butterflies were playing around. At around 2 pm we returned back to hotel for lunch.
Having lunch we started again for the next destination -> Lake View & Shopping. The best thing about this destination was cycling. It was ultimate fun. The Day one had lots of memories with very special people.



Lake is in actually circular shape. Along with the bank of the Lake there is a cycling track. By the time we all were familiar face->Me ,Anil,Techie Jenita ,Divya,and Qutiee(forgot her name). It was almost evening. We were chasing to one another. Me and Jenita started the race, Anil and Techie followed us .But all sudden we lost the way and it was around 7.30pm .Somehow we reached to the right place. From there we all went to our bus and started back to the hotel. On the way again full fun ...singing songs, shouting and all. Once we reached at hotel, Techie started teasing us about her hotel as they got a very good view .I was actually jealous but above all i badly wanted to stay over there. Somehow at around 11pm we (me & Anil) said bye and went to our hotel.

Day 2:
At around 9 am, they all reached at our hotel. So the journey for the new destination started ->Pine forest view. That was just an amazing experience. We ran, shouted and did whatever drastic things we could do. Took  hundreds of pic by giving all the possible poses .At the end in  Pine Forest itself, there started " the crazy race" between me and Techie ...You are damn good at cheating :P anyway cheaters always wins :P :P. Ohh I forget to tell about the climate - it was dazzling ...the best possible climate anyone always wants for picnic.
From Pine forest we went to Guna Cave, Bear Shola Falls, Kurinji Andavar Temple and Pillar rock. By the time we had a very crazy group .We were simply shouting everywhere. Lots of things to tell. I really can’t express it in words.
Finally it was evening again so here comes the same destination- Lake View and boating. Actually I really don’t know how to express the feeling that time we had. We were divided in groups of four for boating. Me , Anil,Techie and Divya  took paddling boat. Once we jumped into the boat, it started raining. That was the best fun I ever enjoyed. We all four were on the middle of the lake, It was dazzling .We were shouting, singing and at the same time we all were fully wet. Climate was chilly. Once we came back we were shivering actually. So planned to buy some sweaters. The ultimate fun here comes we both brought two sweaters for Rs. 200 :P

THE END…. <3
In Short

In life we do things. Some we wish we had never done, some we wish we could replay a million times in our heads. But they all make us who we are. Our Journey has come to an end for now... but the memories remain close to my heart; Forever and Always. I wish, if I can replay the same trip with so special one forever and ever.<3

Hotel


The plan :P


Fun in bus

Tashan Apni Apni :P




Cycling The Ultimate Fun









Boating The best moment 









Deep Thought


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Shamy Chechiii



Crazy Run



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The Last Click <3

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Can you hear the melody- 6 Days @ Beach

Sitting at flat whole day in the weekend was just like sitting in a class at 7th standard while other boys are playing cricket in the ground and you can see and listen their voice but can't do anything.So i decided to pass my time just going to some beaches as the only thing you can appreciate about Kerala is the natural beauty.
At 5 PM I started all alone and went to the beach. It was killing me while i saw hundreds of people enjoying with their friends,family and all.Then I went far away from all of them and sited alone at the seashore.I sited there for almost one hour.By the time I could only see the sweet and the calm waves coming near and then going far away.It was as if  they(waves) were saying, "don't worry we are here to enjoy with you".While the waves used to move away it was as if it were saying "I'll be right back,got some work. You Just sit here".After a while I started enjoying my loneliness.I started thinking about many a things which I could have never thought earlier.
I remembered one quote "If You don't look Up there is no Sky".And I realized the same.Because earlier I used to go with cousin((now he got transferred)so never observed so many things.The best part was sunset. Sitting alone,hearing the sweet sound of the waves and looking at the sun (setting down) was just amazing.After sitting there for almost 3 hours I felt so good I can't even express. May be this will not be big thing for you guys but for me it meant a lot.As loneliness was just killing me.
So I started going everyday in the evening time at Shangumugham beach(just 4 KM from my flat).I used to sit at the seashore for two hours everyday. I went continuously for 6 days.Finally started my journey again.

Lesson :
Life is taught but not impossible. We are the only people who makes it complicated.Behind every negative thing there is a positive thing too, the only problem is , often we look at the closed door so long that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.